It’s been Confusingly Complicated

November 17, 2024November 18, 2024 / Shannon DeRose / Leave a comment

It’s been a long time since I wrote. I find it hard to explain what’s been going on. It’s confusing weird and totally unnecessarily complicated. So since I don’t know how to explain things I just don’t say anything. I don’t write as much I don’t text as much or post as much.

Sooo here I am trying my best to explain things.

Last year my main doctor over my care was unexpectedly moved.

Since then I have not really found a doctor to take over. So it’s been hard. That doctor advocated for me. Explain things stood up and got the things I needed done.

Now he did above and beyond what he was supposed to do. And I do not expect in the slightest for another doctor to do that.

In January my psoriasis started getting worse and ended up caausing some issues around my Hickman central line (basically long term iv) and getting it replaced was what we knew I’d need in the long run but the doctors didn’t want to mess with me. Not having the doctor to tell the other doctors how important this was. Made it hard.

And as the line got worse and worse. The Place I had gone it get my care for my line for years got overwhelmed and confused by all that was happening because I hadn’t found someone to be able to make the doctors talk to each other on what to do! Which isn’t truly the fault of anyone there just how the medical community works sadly.

In April after waiting months I had surgery to replace my Hickman during surgery they couldn’t seem to be able to put the line in easily at all. Due to having vascular EDS my veins are slow collapsing into them self and/or splitting into smaller veins that basically lead no where. And because of this things like central lines have issues getting through.

The surgery put a Hickman( the longer team iv thing) in but couldn’t get it where t was suppose to be not deep enough in the vein. And it was extremely painful.

After a few months till they could get me into a different surgeon once I got in they decided to do another surgery and remove the old line and place another.

Well that surgery was suppose to be 30-45 minutes and it ended up taking over 2 hours. I was able to go home after what seemed like a short time in post op recovery.

The Hickman hurt weirdly so when I got out of surgery. But after using it at home it hurt. Badly. My breathing then started feeling like I couldn’t catch my breath. It was then my papa was like we got to go to the hospital. And when I agreed my parents knew something was wrong! Hahah

So at the er they were busy the doctor ordered an X-ray. And the X-ray tech using the portable X-ray took a few X-rays of my chest side and back. She seemed worried and that was worrisome.

But when a man comes in and says the dr ordered a ct made both of us kinda worried. After the CT scan within five minutes of being back in the waiting room someone came to get me.

The doctor would then come in and tell us that my Hickman wasn’t in a vein. It had somehow wasn’t where it was supposed to be. I was admitted.

We all decided to try and put a picc line for the time being. They had a hard time putting it in my veins are very thin and they move around a lot. There isn’t much or any connective tissue holding them in place.

After they put the picc line I went back upstairs at the hospital my picc line stopped working. It turned back in on its self.

I had to get it replaced the next day. And was able to be discharged which was a blessing!

But less then two weeks later my picc line stopped working. My doctor told me to go to the duke ER and so we drove the 3 hours there and then we got to the er at 2ish on a Monday and we left the ER at like noon on Thursday. I was in the ER the whole time. In a room with a curtain and in a busy area…

Horrifyingly this wasn’t my worst time in the ER

But during those 4ish days I had 3 picc line fails two tries in one arm and one in the other meaning they couldn’t get them in. Two Hickman line in my chest that they couldn’t get in. And then the last ditch effort came in…

A Hickman placed in the very top of my leg. It’s a very interesting place to have one. It is weirdly in the way more than I would have thought.

Like simple things.. dogs or children sitting in your lap making sure they don’t pull or mess with the central line on my leg.

Leaning against the counter to get something or to rest and your line is right at that level. Wearing shorts tbhe line with dangle and that makes it hard not get it caught on something.

When I need to give myself medication in to my line I’ll either have to pull my pants up if I’m wearing shorts or lose clothing or down. Unhelpful and weird in some situations.

But it works. It’s what I need to survive. We don’t know what’s gonna happen just yet but we do know that my body won’t stop getting worse but we will become better at handle it.

The psoriasis is dangerous and confusing. And the eczema is itchy and painful. so what’s the plan from here on out?! Confusingly it’s trying a different medication to see how that works.

It’s confusing because they still don’t know what cause it to get so bad. And we don’t know either but I started a new medication which is an injection every other week. We will see how this goes!!.

Having a chronic disease makes you have to learn to accept the reality of the disease. I know my body will get worse as my disease progresses and it’s up to me to handle this with joyfulness and kindness.

I don’t know what’s gonna happen and I feel like this is confusingly complicated and have no clue what we will do next or what is gonna work. But I leave it in the Lords hands

Sooo here we go…

Shayweasel is confusingly complicated

But thankful!

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It gets worse but you handle it better.

November 27, 2023November 28, 2023 / Shannon DeRose / Leave a comment

Life is weird and I’m ok with that. I think so anyway….

I have a habit of not wanting to say things are bad. It’s a good habit to have but not always a helpful one.

It’s not like I deny that things are happening it’s that I don’t want to bother people with things.

I think sometimes I’m doing great! I’m stable and then my body decides that it doesn’t like that and I trip and fall and leave a bruise for two weeks that’s concerning and then I remember that my body is getting worse.

My disease is progressive and it will always be getting worse one way or another I will become worse.

and that this is hard to handle. I think back to almost ten years ago right before my nose surgery to clean my Sinus and remove a bone that wasn’t suppose to be there. I think about how confused and unsure of how or why my body was so weird.

But how after the surgery I knew things were never gonna get better. I know my body was gonna kill me.

As the years have gone on I’ve slowly seen the progression of my diseases become worse. Small things like eye sight getting worse or Small things like not being able to orally eat much. It seems to lose at least one or two foods every now and then to come down to only really being able to eat bites.

Somethings have gotten easy but also harder. I use to need my wheelchair every time we went out. For a few reasons ones mainly because I use the wheelchair for one of the big reasons because I had so many seizures that I was falling every time I had one causing more problems than ever like once being on the pavement in a Target parking lot and your parents not being able to get you up and into the car and having to have a stranger who just asked if we needed help! help your dad get you in the car.

The seizures have lessened because of my VNS which is my Vagus nerve stimulator. Which is a small device that is wrapped around my vagus nerve in my neck/chest on goes to my heart then other goes to my brain.

The device is like a pace marker for your brain. It goes off on this small pulse every 90 seconds. It has a pulse that goes off that’s higher whenever I put my magnet on my VNS.

Now the highest plus goes off whenever it feels a seizure of some kind happen inside my brain/heart and that one goes off for a normal person (well normal person who has seizures and happens to have a VNS) is around 20 to 40 times and that’s a bad number to them.

Mine goes off over 200 times every day. So without the VNS I’d most likely be having over 200 seizures a day. So yes my VNS is something I love and am beyond grateful for!

I know that the seizures, the diseases that have been slowly killing me. will never go away. And that they will get worse.

But I don’t have to use the wheelchair as much now. I can walk more. But I don’t go out as often. Partly because when I do it’s an event and I can’t do much the next few days…

I don’t have to use my epipen as much as I use to but I don’t do as much as I use to. And I’m able to get my IV Benadryl like I should be there are times when we have trouble getting it but it happens less often then if use to. But I don’t eat as many foods or eat food orally as much. At All.

All my nutrients come from my feeding tube.

My body has issues with getting sugar from my feeding tube. I got to hear the best thing I’ve ever heard a doctor say “your gonna need to try and eat more sugar and salt orally as much as you can!”

I was like I will make that sacrifice! So hard to do. But ok doctor I will eat ice cream every day!

Do I miss eating normal foods orally? Yes. Of course I do. But now it doesn’t seem like a big deal to not eat them.

It has just became something normal. I can go to a restaurant sit and not eat and I don’t even give a second thought about it!

I don’t think I’m better then I was. I’m just learned to be better at handling it.

I get hurt more often then I use to. By that I mean I fall more my hands do this thing which is considered a seizure which I didn’t know for a good while but my hands do this thing of dropping something my hand will just stay in the same position a few seconds afterwards. Now the most annoying thing my hands do is randomly throwing something. That one gets my last nerve like hand what are you doing?!!???

My joints go out of place a lot making me randomly fall. This past summer I got burned by an iron twice while doing crafts. The first one was a first degree burn the second was a second degree burn funnily enough.

I am constantly covered in bruises and things. I had to have two teeth surgically removed in September. because of how deeply my tooth was in the jaw bone

The top tooth on the opposite side of my mouth was a wisdom tooth and I broke it during a seizure an over a year ago. They had to cut into mg sinus cavity to get it out of my cheek bone I don’t understand how mh body even works

I’m saying all this to say it’s the weird things that happen randomly that’s what makes it hard.

It has gotten easier to remember to take my meds, to carry my backpack doesn’t seem hard now. It’s been basically a part of me

Don’t mind being home watching tv, baking, doing crafts, like making bows or crocheting.

I can do everything I’m supposed to. Everything the doctors tell me to do. And I know that I will get worse. My diseases will progress no matter what I do.

I will lose friends to diseases. Having friends who understand your health is always helpful but turns hurtful because you know they have the same or similar outcome as you do.

But as the years go on that progression doesn’t seem as scary. Doesn’t feel as hard to handle. The thing you learn is it’s ok to be ok with getting worse. It’s a good thing to learn your limits. Your life is hard but you don’t have to be fearful.

Getting my feeding tube changed out which happens every 6-10 months doesn’t seem scary anymore it’s more like just going to have a conversation with the people in radiology.

Getting Hickman drsssing changed every Friday at the Rabb clinic (infusion center here where I live) doesn’t seem like a big deal it’s basically me going to visit the nurses and front desk people. The guy who drives the little trolley type thing that picks people up in the parking lot to take them to the front of the hospital. I see and talk to them all.

It becomes less of a problem to be able to do these things. It becomes scarier but that fear you now know how to handle. You learn to be ok to calm yourself when everything is going wrong.

You learn to be ok.

***On the beach with my fabulous sister Stephanie!***

It gets worse but you handle it better.

Because believe it or not everything can be worse and you can still find a way to be like Pollyanna finding the fabulous in the worse is the best thing to do.

I trust God. I can handle this because I have the Lord and He makes me stronger.

Shayweasel is worse but handling it better

And that worse is some of the most amazing things have happened out of it. It’s the best kind of worse I could ever ask for and I’m blessed to have it.

I hope your not the first in line

February 24, 2023February 24, 2023 / Shannon DeRose / Leave a comment

You don’t want to go to the ER in general. You don’t want to be here. But somehow you ended up here.

There are a bunch of people in the waiting room. All waiting for help. I’m just the one sitting off to the side.

An elderly lady checks in and sits in the waiting room chair. And within five minutes she’s taken back. And sadly I know a lot abii ok it that.

I almost feel guilty that I’m so glad I’m not the first in line. I’m glad I’m just here for something simple. Here for something fast. I’m so glad they know how to act so fast.

When your the first in line. In the er it doesn’t mean they like you more. It’s not a privilege to go that fast. It’s a burden and a scary act.

It means your not doing good. That somethings really wrong it means that you need help bad. Right now. I’m not the first in line because I’m not doing bad.

I’ve been brought into the ER like that. I’ve seen them work real fast. I’ve been scared and quiet. Praying for this to be all right.

So go that little old lady I pray whoever brought you is fixed or at least they help you some how.

You might never get better or maybe it’s not like that. I just hope you don’t feel bad. That you went back before everyone else has.

And to the other people the one who has been mean. The ones who see this and almost show jealous I hope they find out why they should be glad. That they aren’t the first in line.

Shayweasel is glad to not be first

living with your parents.. as an adult

November 21, 2022December 13, 2022 / Shannon DeRose / 1 Comment

This is pigacorn.. my papa enjoys setting her up around the house in places like this….

I obviously live with my parents! In 2016 my parents and myself decided to move in to a small townhouse in Beaufort. We moved together. I had been living in va beach and they had been living in Raleigh area.

I have to say the first year was hard. Understanding what each of us wanted and needed for and from each other. And how we worked and figuring it all out.

I was not doing anywhere near good health wise and neither where they and we didn’t have much money. And didn’t know what was happening or going to happen.

But we finally figure each other out mostly. And since then it’s gotten easy we figure how what to do what to say and what not to and it’s funnier then ever and we still have days where it’s hard. But mostly it’s good! Funny silly sweet and over all very very random!!

but here are 13 weird things about living with your parents…. As an adult!

13.

You start to truly notice the what your parents react to your other family members by friends by anyone. You see when they get hurt by others especially other family. And learn how to make them feel better!

12.

You know weirdly personal things about each other.…

11.

You start to know all of the times they take their meds and knowing every med they take. and knowing the way they act when they don’t take their meds and the way they act when they are taking them.

10.

You start to figure out if they are in pain without them every saying they are.

You also know how to relieve some pain from them if it’s just rubbing their back, watching something funny. Or just Not talking to them or just giving them a cookie whatever it is you know what you need or don’t need to do.

But you don’t always know…

You know what they need help with and what they don’t want help with. And what they need help with but don’t want help with…

I have some of the most random conversations with my parents. The other day me my mom and my papa had a long conversation about what the difference is in horror movies and scary movies or my mom and I having a long conversation about walkers in the walking dead changing over the course of the show.

You know every tv show, movies, downton abbey, series they like and don’t like. And you know shows we watch together and shows we watch apart. And shows we watch when there is only two of us and on so.

And what things you like to do. Like for my papa studying the Bible and studying to teach different classes he teaches. going to talk to people. Watching tv being funny playing with the dogs!

For my mom it’s things like playing the piano. Singing, Cleaning and pricing the jewelry for the thrift store. Watching tv listening to music. Studying the Bible And talking to people watching the adorable tiny humans!

You learn to look at all the scars of all the things they’ve gone through over the years. All the times you’ve hurt and they’ve hurt and come to realize how and why they do things. And how strong they are to be able to handle it all with such grace!

You know when they are upset sad angry but not always sure what who or why they are upset or angry.

But you know ways to make it better. You learn ways to know how to see them listen to them. Or leave them alone. You still get it wrong sometimes but you try.

Y’all can talk without saying anything… you just know… by looking at each other.

The other day while my mom was talking to someone. My papa and I without saying anything figured out if my mom took her meds and which one she forgot… we are weird sometimes.

You know they are your parents but they slowly become like your friends in the weirdest way. You know how to talk to each other.

We have jokes and random things we say to each other. We laugh we cry we enjoy our random things..

If someone drops or makes a random loud noise or whatever we asks each other “are you ok?” Because when all three of us could fall and have fallen and got hurt. You wanna make sure.

My papa’s way of not way of doing the dishes if you can’t get into the dish then there are no dishes to be washed…

You become comfortable with each other! You don’t feel weird or awkward at all around each other. You know how to make each other laugh. You have inside Jokes.

And do random things to make each other laugh or tease each other. Like my papa and my self like to take random little figurines or toys type things and put them in weird places all over the house! Rory loved this and always laughs and has fun when she comes!

We have quotes from movies, tv shows, random things we’ve said. Random things children around us have said! Like

Us to Eden a one year old we watch

“What’s the magic word?” – Meme

“Mine!” – Eden……

You truly see them at their best. Their worse. You truly see how strong they are mentally, physically, emotionally, and more then any of them how strong they are spiritually!

I have more respect, love and amazement for my parents then i ever have! Daily I see them overcome things. See them be a shining light in so many peoples life. I see how much their simple things they don’t think are a big. How much of a big deal it is to so many.

I see the hours they put in to do all they. I see their struggles in ways I never have. I see them be brave. I see them be silly! I see them enjoy the simple things.

If it’s just sitting on the sofa and watching the nanny or the walking dead or random other shows! They have joy and find joy in so many things. So many different things. They are amazingly fabulous! But they find the biggest joy they find in the Lord.

Now it’s not always easy but it’s not always hard. It’s not always funny (but honestly most of the time it is!) but above all that it’s always full of love!

Shayweasel and her parents live together..

How you Stand up makes the difference

June 30, 2022July 31, 2022 / Shannon DeRose / Leave a comment

You can beleive whatever you want. God has given us free will. You can stand up (metaphorically because some can’t physically stand if you know what I mean anyway..) it’s not just standing up for what you beleive in. No.

It’s about how you stand up. It’s better to understand both sides and be kind to both sides. But sometimes there are millions of sides. But that’s ok but sometimes not standing up isn’t an option (from here on out just know I’m still talking metaphorically because not all people can ya know physically stand up…)

Say you beleive pet stores are horrid and you decide to chain your self to the store or to stand outside with signs telling everyone how horrid they are for walking in. Or you decide to set it on fire or steal everything inside.. Its not very effective.

But if you stand outside and talk to people. Tell them information about why you hate pet stores. It might make a difference but it makes less of a scene but sometimes that’s ok. Sometimes there is no right way to stand up.

When you stand up and end up hurting people physically, like shooting them in the streets. It doesn’t matter what your standing up for. your now making whatever you are standing up for look bad.

Emotions are important But you can’t let the emotions control you. You have to think logically before you just start screaming and going after whatever it is that your standing up for.

If you are against hate. You can’t hate the people who are for hate… because when you do that… you actually are just doing what they are doing Your hating.

You can’t knock someone down and then be mad that they knocked someone down on the way to stand back up.

You have to stand up in the right way. Ask yourself sometimes am I standing up or am I just making a scene?

You can make a scene but it might not change a thing.

Nothing but the Lord is set in stone! You have to learn to understand laws can change good bad or weird ways. Things change. Life changes.

What someone did a 100 years ago that we might think is horridly the worst thing ever. That in a 100 years someone might think that way about us

Life is hard to understand. Sometimes when you knock someone down you need to be the one to help them back up. You don’t have to scream at someone. You don’t have to go and set things on fire.

You don’t have to go erase history to say how horrid people in the past were. Or whatever it is. Because you can’t have it both ways. You need to know history is there and learn from the horrid things and acts people might have done. And learn from it. Learn.

Whenever you look at history and only look at the bad things they did the horrid ways they acted. You are going to keep looking at the bad.

Now I’m not saying that you should be fine with all the bad. And over look it all. No I’m saying that you have to think of the millions people including yourself and the horrid things you’ve said and done. The secrets the lies. And the trends you have followed in.

The things you’ve done because you thought that was the way it was suppose to be. Sometimes you aren’t breaking the rules you just didn’t know the rules in the first place.

Standing up for what you beleive in is important but how you choose to stand up for it now that that is more important. And that’s harder.

Sometimes you just gotta ask God where to stand how to stand and why you need to stand before you even try to stand up.

Shayweasel is confusing

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Glasses on

January 15, 2022January 15, 2022 / Shannon DeRose / Leave a comment

I don’t have a lot of photos of myself so here is one with me and Rory

In movies and In books and Even in life I have seen countless times where the main dorky or weird person gets a makeover and the one thing they seem to do thw most is take off their glasses wearing contacts like somehow that makes them prettier.

And everyone is so amazed by this beautiful person they suddenly see with a new outfit and glasses free and pretty shoes!

They act like this person is so much more pretty then ever before. And then someone says it’s normally the main popular guy or girl or their old friends are like I liked you better before or wow I never knew how pretty you were.

The person then realizes suddenly how beautiful they were all along! They normally don’t go back to their old clothes or put their glasses back on sometimes they do but it’s like they realize suddenly how to be beautiful.

I never understood why you’d want to take your glasss off to look more beautiful. Like I know They might have contacts in or whatever. But why does that make them look prettier.

I think I look less sick with my glasses on then I do with them off. But more importantly the world looks so much more gorgeous to me with them on.

Because when I take my glasses off apparently the world thinks I’m more gorgeous. But the issue is with my glasses off life is a blur I run into things can’t see what’s ahead of me clearly. I have to look closers to see anything.

So while the would sees me more beautifully without them off, I see the world more beautifully with my glasses on.

I think we always do that. I think as humans we see the world is prettier without thinking that the world sees us beautiful or not.

Because when you don’t let what the world wants us to do or be or anything things are easier to see we can see inside ourselves easier when we can see everything outside ourselves clearer.

But when we only care what the world things we can’t see things clearly. We are all blind to the world sometimes when we try to do what everyone wants us to.

So I might not be beautiful in the worlds eyes with my glasses off…

The world is so much more beautiful in my eyes with my glasses on!

Shayweasel is keeping her glasses on…

Are you an apple or something else

January 7, 2022January 7, 2022 / Shannon DeRose / Leave a comment

So I like to start off with saying I am just saying

Have you ever watched a commercial for a Samsung phone or dell laptop you know how they compare them to the leading competitors?

They tell you how much better there products work then all those ridiculous others?

Have you ever seen a political commercial and they tell you how ridiculous and horrid the other is and tell you barely anything about what their plan is.

It’s like well my plan is to not be that guy but like no matter what you aren’t going to be them

You know how all they seem to do is put the other down.

Life is this way like how do you expect children, adults, anyone, and people to stop bullying each other if all they seem sometimes is how much better one thing is then the others? Like look How fabulous I am but they suck..

The world seems to love to point out all the bad all the mean and hurt.

Have you ever watched an iPhone commercial? How they show you their phone. Sometimes not even saying anything they show you how the camera works.

They tell you what the phone can do. It shows the moments you might miss without your phone. It’s different.

I’m not saying ones better then the other I’m saying that maybe the world would be kinder if instead of telling how much people suck that you instead just showed people what you could or watched what other people can do.

You don’t have to put others down for someone to love you to be friends with you you gotta show it and it’s easier when you aren’t trying to be better then someone else but instead being ok with however you are.

So are you an apple or something else?

Shayweasel out…

“No judgement” is a two way street to judgement

January 1, 2022January 1, 2022 / Shannon DeRose / Leave a comment

I hear people say they wish that people wouldn’t judge others the problem with this kind of thinking is that you are right there judging them for judging others.

There can never be no judgement. Because judgement can be a good thing and a bad thing.

A judge doesn’t just convected people to jail they also prove innocence. I’m not saying that there is never a time someone was convicted of something they didn’t do no I’m saying that judgement is important

Good or bad it’s important. We use our judgement in all different ways. And everyday we judge who we believe are good or bad. So we can stay safe

We judge our parents, family friends random people we meet to make sure that we aren’t gonna get murdered. Yea normal things.

Judgement is weird without it things would be very bad with it things can still be very bad with them to.

I think that when you do get judged wrongly by someone you love hate or whoever try not to let it effect you. But do notice if it is true. Are you being rude? Are you wrong?

Now someone might lie and say something horrid but you have to learn to keep going. Because everyone is watching you. Everyone is judging you in a good or a bad way. Unlike Meghan Trainers song “dance like your daddy” everyone is watching you but it’s when you don’t care.

It’s when you feel so ok inside your own mind that you don’t care if they stare you just keep going

So instead of no judgement maybe we need to be ok with the judgement but judge when you Should take judgement to heart and when not to.

So judging by the facts you know sometimes is ok other times people are just rude

Shayweasel is judging you

Horror movies reviews

October 26, 2021November 20, 2021 / Shannon DeRose / Leave a comment

If you know me you know I love horror movies! And Books! I watch a lot of movies and my favorite thing is watching other people watch movies! (Kelsey will surely know this.. as I’ve made her watch a lot of movies since the first week me met!)

I have watched movies I’d say lately but really I watch them all the time…these are the movies that I have enjoyed and hated in a good way….

so here is a list!

Ready or Not

Is a creepy but good movies! The plot is basically that after a couples wedding the grooms family has a tradition in which the new family member which in this case is the bride Grace that they must play a game. Which doesn’t seem that weird to her. Since this family has all kinds of games through out the basically Downton Abbey sized house! And so the game that’s chosen to play which is chosen by putting some weird cards in a box and then she has to pull the card out. The card reads that they are gonna play hide and seek.

From there the movie basically gets weirder and funnier! The movie is wonderful if you go into with the mind set of taking it as a horror movie you can laugh at and with the main character! It makes the movie so much better!

I’d give it like 4 stars for the funniness and like 5 stars for the ending alone!

The hunt

This movie wasn’t like I thought it was gonna be at all. The movies plot is that their are these really rich people who play this game every year in which they get people and hunt them down. Basically hungry games with no winner. The movie is way more fast pace then I thought it’d be and it was way funnier then I thought. The movie ends weirdly but the movie is still worth watching!

I’d give it like 3 stars for randomness/ fast-pace-ness and like 2 stars for the ending

The Grudge (u.s. version 2019)

Basically it’s a hunted sprit that follows you once you’ve entered their house. It wasn’t horrid but it was rather slow story. And ended weirdly upsetting. This movie is originally a movie made in Japan it’s been remade in the US a few times before this one. But the first remake in the US was really good. I feel like they almost wanted to try and be cool or something but I did find it creepy and there are moments you are waiting on the edge sorta feeling

I’d give it 3 stars for acting and 3 stars for cheepiness

Behind You

Basically there is a creepy ghost or sprig that enters though mirrors and you learn more as the movie goes. The movie was slightly hard to follow along and by the end I still wasn’t sure what happened but it wasn’t boring or anything just confusing.

I’d give it 3 stars for the filming and acting alone and 2 stars for overall mainly for confusing story telling.

Jack in the Box

It’s basically what it sounds like there is this old Jake in the box found out in the woods. Jake the weird demon who lives in the box comes out and kills people.

It’s put in a museum after someone else finds it at a sale or whatever.

The acting is weird the story line is slow and you can pretty much guess what’s gonna happen. There are a few parts that were extremely scary! But they ended fast.

The ending to this movie makes me grumpy!

I’d give it 1 star for overall and -12 for ending.

The conjuring universe movies

So I along with my papa and Kelsey we watched all the conjuring universe movies. And I as a horror movie lover! I Have very much loved them. Each one is slightly different and each one is even cooler when you have watched the other ones. Mainly because you get to see how they all connect. Some you know before hand how they connect. Others you think you do. But you don’t.

Some of the movies are super creepy. Some are just intense.

Annabelle comes home

This one is possibly the most fast paced on I. The series so far. This one takes place in the later 1970s and is after you’ve already met and know who and what Annabelle the creepy doll is. This is the Warrens after they have locked. Up Annabelle in there house.

The plot is basically annabelle scary possessed doll is brought to the warrens house (who are real people with a real annabelle doll in real life the annabelle doll isn’t as creepy looking no it’s a ragging Annie doll. The warrens are paranormal detectives who have a room in there house they lock things that have been Possessed or have something paranormal about it. They keep them safe and a Priest comes in and blesses them and then puts holy water to make sure nothing gets out presay.)

The warrens go out for the weekend and leave there daughter with a babysitter at the house. Some different things happen and the babysitters best friend shows up at the warrens house because she wants to see all the creepy things and for some other reason that are important but can be a spoiler if i told you.

It gets a lot for being weirdly random and easy to understand! The acting is fantastic! The creep level is high!

So like a 5 stars for the creepy fast pace of it!!

HBOMax (also have rented it on amazon prime)

Annabelle creation

This one is super creepy like crazily so! I loved it. Bring it all together with the Annabelle movies this one isn’t as fast paced as annabelle comes home. But it is steadily scarier in a different way. The movie has weird twist and turns in it. And the ending makes the movie ten times better.

This movie is basically about how annabelle the creepy doll that seems to enjoy scaring and killing people how it because so evil. And what a better way to tell the story then to put a bunch of orphans with their nun

Or is basically their mom in a house in the middle of no where. It’s great.

The movie did have flashing in it but it wasn’t horrid or anything.

It keeps you focus on it that’s for sure.

I’d give it a 4 ½ stars out of 5

HBOMax also on Amazon prime

Conjuring 3 – Devil made me do it

This movie in the conjuring universe is slower then most of them. But the creepiness and the overall feel is like the others. But for some reason it never picks up the pace a bunch like the others. The acting and story line it’s self are great. But it can be hard to figure out what’s happening sometimes. The movie had a lot more random flashiness in it. And it could be a reason why I didn’t like it as much. Because parts of the movie were just being explained to me by my papa while I tried not to look at the screen so that I didn’t possibly have a surgery while watching it.

The ending is kinda weirdly cool and the camera shots are awesome! It’d give it a 3 ½ out of 5 stars!

I watched it on HBOmax

The Nun

Now this one fantastically fast pace without you almost noticing it. And when you see the over lap of how the other movies are that’s even better.

This one is about a nun and priest going to a monastery in Romania after a nun commits suicided to find the truth and help that the other nuns and priest might need.

The level of not knowing what’s happening is high. And super creepy because of the way the movie sounded I figured it’d be somewhat slow. But it wasn’t slow.

I’d give the nun 5 stars and maybe a few more stars and ice cream.

I brought it on Amazon prime

Conjuring 2

This movie is surprising. The acting in it is amazing and the way it’s shot is even more amazing! It’s creepy.

The storyline which is based on the true story is about a family in the UK who are suddenly being hunted after moving into a house. The Warrens who are the paranormal investigators come to check it out.

The movie is odd but creepy they do a good job with being surprising

I’d give it a 3 for jump scares but a 5 for acting! Over all I enjoyed it. It does have slightly more flashing ness then the others but the people I watched it with luckily didn’t mind explaining it to me

The Curse of La Llorona

Which is sorta part of the conjuring universe but it’s more of a let’s say nod to the conjuring universe. This movie is fabulous when it comes to fast paced and hilarious some of the lines are that totally made the movie better.

I don’t know why a few things happen in the movie while I was watching it but everything did come together at the end which made it better this movie was good!

This movie is about a social worker and her children. One day the social worker shows up at a house after having someone call her to check on a family she finds two children in a closet with candles and crosses all over and the door nailed shut. The mom keeps saying that they are being protected. And if she opens it they won’t be

The movie is fast and well written! I’d give it 4 stars and I’d give it 5 stars for the random lines in the movie!

The conjuring

This one gets me every time I watched it I forget things that happen this movie has some of the most amazing acting out of all of them with maybe a tie for this and the nun both of which is amazing acting wise!

Just like https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Amityville_Horror which is what this movie is based on the movie is about a family

Moving into a hunted house. It’s creepy crazy and amazing all at once! I love the way the movie was made. It felt realistic which Seems to make things always feel creepier it’s not over the top it is fabulous

I’d give it a 5 stars!

So if this Halloween week is here or anytimeOf

The year here are some weird horror movies to watch!

Shayweasel loves creepy!

It’s easier

July 25, 2021 / Shannon DeRose / Leave a comment

I don’t always know how to start. Like what do others want to hear about me? Am I talking to much? And r asking to many questions?

Should I be quite? Do I need to leave them alone? Do they want to know more about me? Or am I explaining to much?

I’ve never been good when it came to things like that. I love to get to know people. To talk to people to be funny and sweet or sassy and smart whatever it maybe I’m not always sure if I’m acting ok or not

Am I rude? So I just keep trying. I don’t like weird awkward silence it makes me talk more way more. It gets weird and then I just talk fast about nothing anyone cares about.

The way my brain works confuses even me so when. It confuses other I want them to know I’m right there with you.

So sometimes it’s a simple question other times the someone question has an insanely long answer because a question like “why do you have a feeding tube?” Can’t be a simple answer.

Like oh I have a feeding tube because my stomach and most of my small intestine are paralyzed but also my eosinophils are attacking my entire digestive system but also I’m allergic to over 200 different foods and it makes it hard for me to find and be able to eat foods that won’t make me sick.

So sometimes the simple question is hardest to answer.

Like I live near the beach and it’s gorgeous! I do feel lucky to be able to have a place I can go to that is free and doesn’t cause me allergic reaction and I don’t have to be around people really there is pretty much always a beach we can go to without many people.

So how am I? Is a long answer to a quick question I don’t know how to answer sometimes.

I’m blessed to be alive to have the ability to go to the beach to go and leave the house to do what I can even if my daily life makes me need to spend hours doing things for my health.

A few weeks ago On a Tuesday I learned that my neuro doctor is retiring. in the same week on Thursday I learned my heart doctor was going to be leaving to help open a heart center about 8-10 hours away from here.

Things like that should totally and utterly stress me out but for some reason this time. They aren’t instead it made me laugh.

Because what our the chances of learning two of your main doctors are leaving in the same week? They are small but they are ok! I’m blessed and so thankful for the life I lead.

It isn’t easy but I wouldn’t trade it

So whatever you learn remember to find someone to talk to about it. Like my sister savannah once asked my papa “I know you stopped listening but is it ok if I keep talking?”

Shayweasel is going to talk way to much someone!

Shayweasel

Continuous Stream of Consciousness

Author: Shannon DeRose