I’m not disabled, that’s how I seen it. I have different abilities than most, I can remember almost anything, I can smell some numbers and some words feel funny. I don’t like being around to many people at once, I’m not great with loud noises.

I am good at a lot of things. Nannying being one. I work as a nannying and I love it. Children and me normally get along. I love children. They are fantastically.

I also have chronic illnesses, Autism, happens to be one, but it doesn’t change who I am but I feel like sometimes it changes the way people see me. I don’t normally just come out to someone and say “hey, hey, hey I’m autistic” but I’ll tell them sometimes when its important for them to know.

People act like things like being in a wheelchair or being unable to walk long ways or being chronically sick and in and out of the hospitals are such a horrible and disabilities life to live.

I mean people see it as the worst thing sometimes but its not that bad. Its just kind of well life. I like life, Its weird and random. I’ve met amazing nurses and doctors and I have made amazing friends who also have chronic illnesses I wouldn’t have met them if it wasn’t for my illnesses.

Its not a disability I have it’s a different ability. I can do a whole lot, and there are some things I can’t do but aren’t all humans bad at some stuff and good at others, I really enjoy writing and reading. I happen to be bad at telling people my emotions sometimes. But thats not a disability its a different ability.

I wish people would understand that it’s not all hard, a lot of it is good. I have a different life not disadvantage life. I don’t wish my brain and body worked different I’m okay with this body that doesn’t stay together and doesn’t digest food and doesn’t work like it should or make hormones I’m okay with all of that because I am able to live. I’m not disabled to live. I’m not dead, I’m alive and I’m well.

 Life isn’t all bad life is good. Life is amazing. We aren’t disabled in a wheelchair, or disabled in the mind, we are different but we are amazing. It just takes time to know how amazing we are. So give us a chance.  

Let me start….

1. They are hard to deal with, but that doesn’t mean impossible. I hate it when people act like having food allergies sounds like the worst thing that could ever happen.
2. I can’t eat the food I’m allergic to. Doesn’t matter if its organic or if its grown in a field of only flowers. I can’t eat it.
3. I did hear they are working on a cure, I most likely heard it before you, like a while ago. Thanks for the update.
4. When I say I can’t eat something please just take my word.
5. I’m picky yes, but if I wasn’t picky I’d die, from anaphylaxis. If I seem rude for not eating something at your party just know if I did eat it, I’d most likely ruin your party by having an ambulance come and pick me up.
6. You have to ask questions if you don’t ask questions then you could end up sick or dead.
7. I can die from the smell and touch of some foods, if you have popcorn be careful not to touch me after eating it. You might hurt me, and I promise you thats not what you want. Just please listen.
8. They are serious and dangerous. And can be deadly.
9. Being “Too Careful” isn’t a thing. You can never be too careful. Food allergies are serious and if not careful can kill me and other people please take just seriously.
10. I read every label, I can tell you almost everything that is in my food. Its kind of cool, or I think it is.
11. I’m going to be okay, as long as I am careful. Food Allergies are hard but they aren’t as hard as you think they are.

This has been Shay-De Foodie Friday!!! 

Shayweaseling it!! 

1. The fact that I have been alive for 23 years is amazing!
2. To meet Macy in person!! (Hopefully summer sometime!)
3. I can’t wait for my Niece Wavey’s first birthday
4. Hopefully get some new doctors and treatment!!
5. Finding new books to read
6. To see my nephew Carson get fully adopted out of foster care.
7. Being able to keep working and making this blog and website better!!
8. Seeing my nieces and nephews get more amazing
9. Watching Rory turn four years old!
10. Going to the beach
11. To listen to all the new music that comes out!
12. To see the world become better
13. For Walking Dead to come back on in October… Let me be honest
14. For my parents 30th anniversary this year!
15. Not vomiting everyday… That’s more of a hope but I’d be really excited if that happened..
16. To get new glasses!
17. Halloween and Scream Queens!!
18. Making 100 post on my website!
19. All the projects I have working on and to be able to show them to the world!
20. Working to make myself a better person each day!
21. Going on roadtrip… It will happen.. Always does!
22. Making art!
23. Living…Being able to breath and laugh everyday.

1. I really don’t like being around a lot of people and thats okay. I knew this was true but I accepted it this year.
2. Emojis make text convos really funny.
3. I seriously love reality TV shows and children cartoons!!!
4. Ice Cream really does heal things.
5. Dye Free Children’s Benadryl from Walgreens does really taste the best.
6. Some diseases have no cure and no treatment and they need one..
7. I freaking love dance moms it’s so dramatic when I watch it I forget about my life
8. Meeting People online can become really good friends!!! (Hey Macy, Hey Aileen)
9. I can get ready really fast. Adding on to that I don’t need makeup to look good.
10. I’m a really good photographer, I’m proud of that.
11. Wearing a Medical ID bracelet does make me feel safer, Adding on to that one Anaphylaxis is horrifyingly scary.
12. The Medical world can suck but I have Spoonie friends to complain to – Also learned what spoonies are (chronically Ill people)
13. Blogs aren’t just for moms and moody teens there is a lot of really awesome blogs.
14. EDM is pretty awesome, and no I couldn’t go to a show of an EDM artist because they would have lots of flashing lights which is one possible way to send Shay into a seizure but their music is pretty awesome and I like that.
15. I love walking around stores like target and ross, and not buying anything. Its like people watching with weirdness and random items.
16. There are always lots of opinions, you just have to know them. I don’t have to say yes to anything I don’t feel comfortably with. and No is an acceptable answer.
17. There is a yoga move for everything in life. Stress? Got that! Anger? Got it! Every emotion has a yoga move.
18. I have a weird act for finding videos and them becoming popular a month or weeks later. Its strange… It happened so many times.
19. I’m addicted to itunes.. I have a problem but no you may not help me with it unless by helping you mean buying me iTunes gift cards if that is the case you may help as much as you please!!
20. Life is random
21. When all else fails eat ice cream, yogurt, and drink out of glass water bottles.
22. I’m a wonderful person I’ll make mistakes and the past really does stay in the past. I love my life

That was what I learned over the past year, I guess you could say this year changed my life, but really every year, every day, every moment, changes your life in some ways.

Happy Birthday to me!!!