Chronic Illness living…

I thought today about how I feel like people don’t understand what a chronic illness means, I mean I have an illness that I will always live with. But the physical pain isn’t the worst part of having this illness its the emotional pain, sometimes you feel like you talk too much about it, other times you want to just not talk about it for the rest of your life. Its the way people act to you. Its hard to know do I talk about my illness or do I want other people not to know or am I allowed to say blah blah or is that wrong? Its not something I’m okay with, I don’t want people to feel sorry for me I want people to just I don’t know understand.

In my first blog post on here I talked about oversharing and it comes into play here as well, how much do they want to know, part of me really does want to talk about it not because I’m obsessed but because at least seven times a day I’m vomiting or feeling weak or I bend down and feel as if my heart rate went up. Its because every part of my day I’m dealing with the illness inside me. I am having to deal with it, but I don’t want to just deal. I want to be alive and I want to live, but living is hard, so I am sorry sometimes when I have a bad pain day or just feel really yuck I might overshare and tell you to much, but I hope you understand that this pain I feel doesn’t go away I either numb it with pain killers or I go out through my day. I know I’m not going to be cured and I know life isn’t easy but I just want you to understand that I’m living with a chronic illness.

 And guys my fellow spoonies, know that most people aren’t going to understand its not going to get easier, but you will have to deal with people being rude, but every now and then you are going to get this person who will change everything, it might be a spoonie friend or someone who just tries and understands, or someone who has dealt with illness and they are going to be your friend.

 We spoonies have to stick together through the misdiagnoses and through the mean doctors to all the people who are just “dumb bitches” we will no matter what get through this!!

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