Feeding tube awareness

Feeding tube awareness is important. O have a feeding tube. I’ve had them on and off for the past few years.

I have had NJ tubes which go into your nose and to your small intestines and right now I have PEGJ tube which goes into my small intestines.

Every day I wake up and make my feeding tube forumla the kind I use is called real food blends. I put it in a blender with water. I then strain it into a bowl then wash the strainer off and the blender then I strain it into the blender again then I wash the strainer off and bowl off and then strain it back into the bowl and then wash the blender off and strainer and strain it into the blender I then get my feeding tube bags that I use and put the mixed strained real food blends into the bag. I close the bag turn the bag upside down and put my fingers on the blue longer part of the bag and squeeze lightly to get the air out of the bag and then prime the line that will connected to my feeding tube the one that goes into my PEGJ that hangs outside my stomach.

It takes lots of work but I would be doing this even if I was eating. I do this sometimes 3 times a day depending on what my body handles a day.

I’m thankful for this that saves my life

Shayweasel out

realizing Relief Requires Relaying

I don’t like seeing others in pain. I don’t want anyone to ever have a battle in life even through we all do. I don’t want anyone to go through anything like I have. So when life gets scary I want to hold tight to my friends and let them know I’m here.

The thing is I’m not physically close to most of my friends. I see them lose there freedom. And then every time I see God.

I lived in Seaboard a small town with lots of people over 60… a lot of them little old ladies! I loved them all!! As I lived there my papa started taking me with him on his visits to their houses or hospital or nursing home. The longer we were there the more my heart fall in love with going to visit people.

I started riding my bike and going to there house sometimes sitting on the porch talking to them. They were always so kind.

I believe in God, I beleive He knew how to make my life. You can find the lines He put in place for me to be here!

I didn’t have a lot of friends my age but I got good at being pen pals at sitting in waiting rooms with family as they waited for their loved ones. I got good at asking questions so I could keep someone talking. I got good at being around pumps, wires helping cool weird foods and being kind listening and not getting annoyed when someone would tell me the same thing ten times. I felt calm. I learned how people are people no matter what we see. Leo Boone was a man who was paralyzed from the neck down. He was always smiling.

I learned animals are amazing at making people connect sometimes. It’s not that I didn’t already know these things I just learned more about them.

When I was in the hospital even if it was for me or someone else I didn’t mind I had done this before. People always told me I’d make a great nurse I normally told them thank you. Deep down I knew I felt something I needed to be.. and medical was involved.

My friends have health problems, my family does too. I learned and owe more to how God set my life up then any thing I can imagine.

I didn’t want to relay on anyone but truthful I have too. The person I have to relay on that each of us has to relay on is God.

People sometimes act as is you are stronger when you don’t replay on others. And truly it is you are stronger when you relay on others.

You will never be able to find relief without Realizing that it Requires relating on others. Everyone needs to be able to have others relay on them and others to relay on its a balance.

Shayweasel realizing Relief Requires Relaying

Saint Anything..


On a Tuesday in the winter of 2007 I went to the library with my papa, it was my home away from home. The Librarian who knew me by name told me I should read this book called Dreamland, By Sarah Dessen. I took this book home, and sat it in front of me. I had gotten four books that day, along with Dreamland, I just looked at this book, I wondered where this book would take me. So as any good reader does. I threw myself into the book, and when I came up for air three hours later, I was in love, with the story, the way the book played out. I finished the book and when I went back to the library that friday I went over and searched for any other books by this author Sarah Dessen, A book sat on the shelf, and I felt almost as if it called out to me, which I know makes me sound crazy, but I picked up a book called Just Listen.

I took this book home and threw myself into it. And I never came up for air. It was amazing, I felt as if I had known Annabelle and we were friends. Like everything she was saying was thoughts running through her head. when I finished the book. I sat for a very long time. I couldn’t get it out of my head. This book changed the way I had thought about somethings. I was amazed and still am by this book.

From then on I read Sarah Dessen’s books each one meaning something to me. Each one taking a part of me and making me better. When I saw Saint Anything was coming out I was amazed, I couldn’t’t wait. I was so excited I preorder the book I waited and then.. I was told it was back ordered, which sucked, but anyway..

I know when Sarah Dessen writes a book its not just going to be good, its going to change something inside you, it’ll make you think, feel, believe, and have way too many emotions the books she writes are hearts souls and you feel by the end of the book that you know this person.

Like they are your friend.

So as I still wait for Sarah Dessen’s new book, I know it’ll be amazing, because they always are. Sarah Dessen is one of my favourite authors and a hilarious person to follow on twitter, she is amazing. I love the books she writes and I love the way she writes them.


So this has been Surprise Tuesday!! Surprise its Tuesday which today means that Saint Anything came out and I still don’t have it. Go read it and follow Sarah Dessen on twitter because she is fantastic and buy her books and follow her everywhere else too.

  Shayweasel out!